I was a Child but I Already Knew

I was a Child but I Already Knew

A child already knows

That something is hidden there, some elemental horribleness under the surface.

What monstrous selfishness or horror does he intuit, even when his skin is still so smooth it glows and surprises like the miniscule iridescent facets of an opal?

Opals are said to be bad luck when they are not your birth stone.

It is an old wives’ tale.

 Wives are people too.  So are their men.

Men and women are

powerless against disaster.

Women sneak pills

And men get yoked and tugged at like sickly, sloped-backed nags at jobs where the finished product is

Something immediately disposable or else

Something so permanent it is like a new planet, in a star system of trash, in a galaxy of the pop-tops from old beer cans and pages and pages of manuscripts dotted with emoticons.

The smiley face.

The frowny face.

I think maybe it is the frown a child already senses, primordially,

The sad, powerless giving-up of a frown.  Or else, the brave lie of a smile.

My Crafts

I had a really bad experience on Etsy (see below rant), and so I don't want to have my shop on there anymore, though I've had it on there for a few years at least.  I do have a little site that's just my own crafts, too (http://www.wearetheleopards.net/), but I don't think anyone sees it unless they're clicking on the link from here, because I don't really know how to advertise or otherwise drum up interest.  It's sort of a bummer to me, though, or I guess it's just the downside of making crafts --  because I make these really pretty scarves and hats and purses and coasters and jewelry.  It's my hobby (as it is many girls that look and act like me, I suppose), but then I just put them in boxes and sometimes I look through them all and feel proud that I made something so pretty, but also ridiculous that it's all stashed away in boxes.  

Anyway, I think that from now on, I will occasionally list some of my things on here, and close down my Etsy shop.  If nothing else, it sort of pleases me aesthetically to see the occasional purse posted here, in between the rants and Evil Dead II clips.  And, I dunno, inquire if you're interested in purchasing anything I post.

 LITTLE TROUBLE GIRL PURSE $22 PLUS SHIPPING, SLIGHTLY NEGOTIABLE

THIS IS THE LITTLE DESCRIPTION I POSTED ON ETSY ABT THIS SWEET BABY OF A PURSE:
The body of this purse is crocheted from a yarn w/ the following blend: 22% wool, 50% acrylic, 28% nylon -- it is fuzzy and comforting to the touch. A stunning panoply of color: eggshell, hot pink, halloween orange, beige, green. lovely. the purse body measures 10 inches wide by 10 inches long. features folk-art aesthetic imperfections such as visible tan hand stitching in the lining in the inside of the purse, which is a beautiful fabric pattern, a motif of pink flowers and fern-like leaves printed on a bed of midnight blue (cotton fabric). there is also a patchwork aesthetic to the purse lining, as the primary fabric cover is interrupted with an odd-shaped patch of black cotton fabric (see photos). the handles are made from thick braids of a sturdy black acrylic yarn. created with care and attention to detail in a smoke and pet free environment. xoxoxo